New Playlist

Notice tak all the songs in the playlist to mcm jiwang? Hehe, biarla. Bear with me k. Actually, all the songs listed was my favorite songs from back then. Each songs carved its own memory. Oh, that is how my mind function. When i listened to a song, i can relate to my past memory, like its still vivid in my mind. Yup, mcm background songs pn ade. Tp, it makes it more easier to remember things. Sbb 2 la sye suke study wif blaring musics (nak bela dri yg suffers from ADHD)

Lagu "Bila Rindu" reminds me of Aja, Sue n Eman. We used to visits Cameron Highland, stay together kat Villa Dahlia n have a great fun time. Mse 2 lagu ni tgh femes n i listened to it over and over again. So, whenever I listen to this again, I feel like being transported few years back, where we were still together; enjoying the nice weather n fabulous scenery. Uhuk, rindukan kamu semua.

Then, "Tong Hua", by Guang Liang. I discovered this songs during my matriculation era*. Reminds me so much to Kak Su (dorm mate). She's the one responsible for dragging me into the fantasy world of Tong Hua. Hahaha, pengaruh rakan sebaya. It is a very nice song. I love it although i don't know the meaning of this song. Later, ble dah tau every meanings of the words in it, I fall deeper~

Yang lain? Malas nak cite. Enjoy the songs.

Tragedi oktober

What did you do on the day that you are suppose to be stress-free but you get so stress out and you want to erase that stress? huh? same la kte, sye pun xpaham ape sye tulis

(T__T)

Oh, knape anda stress hari ni?

Sye stress sbb dri sdiri pmalas. Gni, yesterday i have gone through one of my final paper. Today, I got the marks. The marks 4 final pretty ok la, but... the carry marks from the previous tests n assigments really brings me down. Got B+ for that simple subject. ohpadanmukabudakpemalas~

Oh, 2 bukan the sole reason that makes my day so cloudy. Later, i received a text from Dida, saying that Dr.J wants to meet us at 2 regarding practical. Ohh, dengar je practical, mmg la sangat mnyakitkan hati cos kami xdpt the places that we've applied. Well, what do you expect? xsmua yang anda mintak anda aka dapat, kan..kan..

Untuk mnyedapkan hati sdiri, tetibe tringat, "

what if u get what u want but it is not what u need?'

hmmmm, thought about that too. Finally, i decided that i dont want to care about that anymore cos i know this practical thing will never be easy regardless where u are.

Skrng..Time to get rid of that bugging stress.

with

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These cute cupcakes.

I made it myself

(^_^)

Bangga cos my first attempt dah berjaya mnghasilkan bnda yg kiut n best ni. Nak bukak kdai bakery la lpas ni.

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After urgent meeting with Dr.J, I went to a bakery shop kat SS ntuk cari bahan2 nak wat cupcakes. Pastu nampak la tiny2 things yg kiut2. Tgk umbrella kecik 2, it only cos me 30cents. Hoho, thats for Nurul Syuhada's birthday :)

Tgk la bdak kecik ni mkn cupcakes super cute ni dgn spuas hati.

Nampak sngt cupcakes 2 sedap.

Alya: CikYie, i love dis one. U r really talented in baking.

Cik Yie: I know that already *smug*

yea, baby, have some more. Yummy.

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so, i end up chasing those stress away. But, stress said that it will visits me again. sooner than i expected katenya.

Happened when I forced myself to read (T_T)



The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

p/s: sngt la berbeza dgn kakakku ini

Test aftermath

Starring: a girl with no conscience

Lemme tell ya a story bout thiz gal

She iz a student yet she never learn

she says: ditching class is healthy

she lurv 2 whine n cry

She never take da blame

VERY.. impulsive!

She do what she wants

She bends the rule as she likes

she iz out of control

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Once in a while

she stares out of the window

and see the reflection

on the clear glass

and realizes

that

she's no longer likes what she saw

Welcome to dreamland

Okay my fellow students, today.... we are going to talk about.... DREAM HOUSE! Eh, wait, before you tell me about your dream house, let me tell you what's mine first. Okay, here it goes. I want a beautiful small cottage for myself. Did u get the picture? U don't? Its okay, let me show u.

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Tada!

Address: Make a wish cottage, No 3388,

Dreamland.

Beautiful isn't it? Well, I kept on dreaming about this

cottage thingy since childhood. Yes, she is such a dreamer. Well, no harm done right. Actually, I start dreaming since I read this book.

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Wishing Wand by Enid Blyton! Hey, look at that mushroom-like cottage plus small well. Super Cute for super dreamy girl. Okay students, now you've got the picture of my dream house. Wait! I'm not finish yet! Let me be your tour guide for a peek in this dreamy house. JOM!!

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Fresh hydrangea. I just pick it up from my lawn.

Yeah, i know its beautiful

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This is where I'll have tea with them.

For women only area.

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Oh, messy kitchen. Well, I live a very hectic life.

Sigh, thats y i don't have time to clean it up.

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Drooling already? Yeah, I know it's lovely.

Its even more lovely when my brothers sprawling on the couch

( -_-")

This is the room 4 my beautiful nieces when they come to visit.

Cik Yie only can afford the simple one for u girls.

This one is for me (^_^)

Class, please remember to thank Google 4 these dream come true images. So, lesson for the day, u need to start saving this instance and make your dream come true. Hahaha, but.. please be realistic. A small cottage doesn't suits a person with seven siblings and loads of close relatives. Uhhuhuhu.

Oh teacher, aren't you suppose to finish up your position paper?

DUHHHHHHHHH

Kembali Tenang (^_^)

Ohh, Tenangnya

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Betul!

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Setenangnye Dorm Tenang dulu

huhu, I miss dorm yg paling cool n the girls inside it

Kolej Mara Kulim nye Tenang

Setenang hari minggu yg di-spend with jalan2 sekeliling bukit KMK

sambil carik buah-buahan yang best dimakan.

Menikmati alam pnye tenang

(^_^)

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Setenang sesi menonton tv

with my Ma n Abah

yang akan bagi syarahan setiap kali ade scene yg best

"Doh tau doh sare ular, duk seluk tange wak gapo?"

translation: Dah tau tu sarang ular, buat ape nak masukkan tangan ;p

~Tenang~

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Tenang yang bertambah ble mndengar syarahan Sumaiyah

"Don't worry la eyie, get over it. Brape sangat la kwn kat U yang kekal?

Bagi aku, jarang sangat... It will pass.

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Yes, it will in another 3 months

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so, hold on tight cos its its gonna be a bumpy ride

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Oh, then i'll be out of here,

responsible for my own life

Uhh, thats not really Tenang

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Tenang through Dream..

oh, tadi nmpak rmai manusia yg bratur panjang yg nak amik jubah. Diorang da nak grad.. huhu, tinggal la sye keseorangan dicini. Spe suh amik cos 4 tahun. Padan muka.ahh, xkira, even xgrad tahun ni, still gak nak dream about graduation day

. Here it goes.

Okay, on the day, bangun pagi2 tunaikan sgale kewajipan, then check hp, dpt msg congratulations from bff. Then, salam ngn Ma n Abah n trus g dewan besar.

No, Ma ngn Abah tidak dibenarkan hadir ke UPM!!

Knape?

Sebab, Ma xsuka tempat yg crowded, tambah2 lg mne ade tempat duduk yang selesa disediakan 4 them. Xsanggup diorang berpanas n penat2 mnuggu anakanda yg berada didewan yang siap beraircond. So, Ma n Abah tgu kat umah eh.

Then, ble je dapat grab the scroll, dgn hati berbunga2, trus mnuju ke tempat parking, start enjin n pecut balik umah. Sampai umah dengan muka penuh riak dan bangga, dengan penuh dramatik, I said

"Uh lihatlah dunia btape aku berjaya mngatasi halangan dan rintangan spanjang disne"

hahhahahahhaahha

okey, pastu tbe la celebration time. Hopefully mse tu da keje la eh. Umm, firstly, treat them with dinner. oh, kpade kakakku yang membace, inilah time terbaik ntuk bagi hadiah n bunga. N pokok bunga Ma tidak masuk dalam istilah "bunga" on graduation day. Pastu, hang out together, even lepak tepi jalan n tgk krenah org pn xpe cos 2 benda yang bermakna yg kte jarang wat.

Pastu.. oh belem habis lagi.. pastu, ble balik kg, ajak semua kaum krabat g barbeque kat air terjun. Jangan lupa bawak banner "Happy Graduation Day" eh. Pastu, duk same2, tgk budak2, baby2, mak budak, mak sdare budak maen air.

Sbenarye, I just wanna spend time with them cos its hard to be out there all alone.

Ape lagi yang paling tenang slain tgk org yg anda syg bergelak ketawa?

~Mimpi yang tenang~

Hari Puisi Sedunia

Jika diibaratkan diri sbagai sampan, hanyut ke tengah laut yg gelap dan penuh rahsia. Dipukul ombak berkali-kali, tanpa sauh untuk menstabilkan diri. Mungkin suatu hari sampan akan kembali ke gigi pantai semula, tapi ia tidak akan sama sperti dulu. kerana ia dah melaui duga yang mengubah diri. Mungkin ia hanya tinggal rangka, mungkin ia akan bangga kerana berjaya melalui duga.

Life has been hard on me lately. Hard enough till i want to curl up into a ball and cry all day. And, when i thought it was over, there always something more in store for me. Over 3 years i've been here, this is the end. And i want it to end cos i can't stand it.

so, let Muse tell u the tale of my life;

I can't remember when it was good

moments of happiness elude

maybe I just misunderstood

all of the love we left behind

watching the flash backs intertwine

memories I will never find

and I'll feel my world crumbling,

and I'll I feel my life crumbling

and feel my soul crumbling away

and falling away

staying awake to chase a dream

tasting the air you're breathing in

I hope I won't forget a thing

and all of the love we threw away

and all of the hopes we've cherished fade

making the same mistakes again

making the same mistakes again

and I feel my world crumbling,

and I feel my life crumbling down,

I can feel my soul crumbling away,

and falling away,

falling away with you

all of the love we left behind

watching the flash backs intertwine

memories I will never find

memories I will never find

Hubungan kite sesame manusia boleh dijadikan kayu pengukur dengan hubungan kite ngn pencipta. Dan dari semua yang berlaku sekarang, jelaslah betapa aku lalai dan lupa. Dia menurunkan dugaan yang bertimpa-timpa untuk aku yang lupa dan bermegah dibumi ciptaannya.

That's the way it is

Huhu, sayu mendengar lagu raye yag dari td duk berkumandang dr laptop kakakku.. uhuhu, kesian die xleh balek kampung! Xpe Dja, adikmu akan berbahagia di hari raya. Wahhaha.

Wait!! Ape "That's the way it is" tu??

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This is it

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Have you ever feel like being left behind?

Like you want to keep up with them but you can't because you don't have special ability to be at some places at a time.

Have you ever feel like being used?

Like they will stick with you when they are alone and need comfort?

Have you ever thinking of leaving?

Like ignoring them, slamming the door in their faces?

Have you ever feel so helpless that you can't do anything bout it?

And you just can see them from afar and kept telling yourself that it is ok?

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Have you?

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Have you?

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Well

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THAT'S THE WAY IT IS!

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THAT'S THE WAY OF LIFE

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So chill, whenever u feel like crying~ istighfar banyak-banyak

becos it will calm your heart.

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N then, ikhlaskan hati anda! Please!

If they come with the tears, greet them with smile and advises;

but stop hoping that they'll share their laughter with you

(astagfirullahalazim)

if they come to laugh with you;

laugh along but dont forget that the laughter will never remain the same.

(Astagfirullahalazim)

when they seem to forget about your existence;

remember that they r just human s you r;

and humans tend to forget

and u shud stop whining

(Astagfirullahalazim)

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As long as you remember;

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Don't do something that you don't want people do to you

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Dunia je ni

(quoted from Mohd Faiz)

TeaRy Eyes

“Hai orang-orang yang beriman peliharalah dirimu dan keluargamu dari api neraka yang bahan bakarnya adalah manusia dan batu, penjaganya malaikat-malaikat yang kasar, yang keras, yang tidak mendurhakai Allah terhadap apa yang diperintahkan-Nya kepada mereka dan selalu mengerjakan apa yang diperintahkan.” (At Tahrim :6)

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Siapa penghuninya?

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“Aku melihat ke dalam Surga maka aku melihat kebanyakan penduduknya adalah fuqara (orang-orang fakir) dan aku melihat ke dalam neraka maka aku menyaksikan kebanyakan penduduknya adalah wanita.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim dari Ibnu Abbas dan Imran serta selain keduanya)

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Aku?

Menangis;

Berduka.

Bertanya;

KENAPA?

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Kerana nafsunya

;mengagungkan kesenangan dunia

Kerana akalnya yang kurang

; berpaling dari akhirat, tertipu dgn kesenangan dunia

lalu lemah untuk beramal

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9 nafsu : 1 akal

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Hibanya hati

Sedih memikirkan diri

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Wanita juga sebab yang paling kuat untuk memalingkan kaum adam dari akhirat

kerana hawa nafsu dalam diri mereka,

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kebanyakan dari mereka memalingkan diri-diri mereka

dari akhirat,

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cepat tertipu jika diajak kepada penyelewengan terhadap agama

dan sulit menerima jika diajak kepada akhirat.

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Aku?

Bersenjatakan iman yang nipis dan ilmu yang cetek?

Menjamu nafsu dengan setiap khilafku

Menangis hiba roh yang kelaparan

Jasad bergelak ketawa,

bergelumang dosa, noda.

Meraung roh yang jelas dengan siksaan kelak

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kemana halatujuku kelak?

aku menangis

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Ya Allah, ampunkanlah segala dosaku, dosa kedua-ibu bapaku. Jauhkanlah aku dari siksaan api neraka. Suluhkanlah hatiku dengan Nur cahayamu serta kurniakanlah aku pembimbing yang bersama-sama berjuang dijalanmu. Amin.

RAnDom

Knock! Knock!

Dear my precious Rian; You have left me alone here for almost a year now. How are you? I hope you are okay n happy with whoever u are with. Send my regards to him or her and ask him or her to take care of you. Take care of you better than I do. I am able to cope without you. To tell you that.

I am able to live in the world without your existence.

Hahaha, meroyan.

My Rian (T_T)

this is the syndrome of "meroyan" when I'm forcing myself to read the notes written by me with my 'cakar ayam' and super messy handwriting.

moral of the story: Don't do the reading!

Overly exited (T__T)

Let the story begin..

Last night I really tried my best to read 2 chapters of Brown for test!! Erk, okey, to be honest, I've tried to finish 2 chapters of Brown sambil FBing, chating. Then, i end up with only one chapter revised. Huhu, typical Heriana with short attention span. But!! I've promised myself to finish it before the test.

Then, come Sahur...

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Wakes up, mamai-mamaian, brushed my teeth

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Makan, minum

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Maen ngn Baby Lia, Kcau Kakak

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STudY tanpa tidur after subuh! *Syabas*

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STudy

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Study until 11 am kot

*rote learning jela*.

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Lega cos I've cover up all the chapter. Fuhh, naseb baek I mmg terer bab stadi last minit!!

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Entered class, waiting anxiously for the test to begin.

*bimbang all the facts that I've read lari bertempiaran*

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Eh, ble test nak start ni? Its already 1.10pm.

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*Cuit DidaDeen dtepi* "Hep, nape test xstart lg?"

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"Eh, ari ni mne ade test. Test 19 la Eee"

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(-_-")

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Kne gelak ngn Ct

Moral of the story: Please lupa lagi the ACTUAL date for the test so there's no more last minute study! Duh!

Buatku Tersenyum (^_^)

"Bangun-Bangun! Cpat, Bangun sahur!"

Abah sebok kejut anak2 dara die bangun sahur, pastu menuju plak ke bilik si teruna.

"Bangun sahur" ---> (^_^), tringat kat suara abah, muka abah, trick2 yg dguna.

Buka mata, bau makanan. Uhhh, geliat. Basuh muka, menoong ke dapur. okey, makanan da siap hidang. 1.2.3. Amik tempat cepat!! Marathon. Pastu wat muka menyakitkan hati kat adik bradik laen cos dpat port best. Tu klo brnaseb baek je, klo x.. mesti kluar suara suprano@melolong@nangis dgn pnuh prasaan ----> (^_^), terseyum lg.

Ma sruh smua niat. Klo boleh niat sbulan terus. Then, makan! Umm, tetibe abang-yg-mmg-tau-adek-die-manja akan tarik lauk paling best and dengan muka riak said "Ni lauk aku, org leaen xleh!". Lalu, si budak manja mula mgalirkan air mata ----> ( ^_^") Sape la bdak tuh.

Si kakak menjeling sedas. "Jerit sokmo! MAkey cepat!!" Tidakk, tidak dihiraukan oleh budak-super-manja itu. Well, latihan vokal mestilah consistent ----> (^_^) Jeles

"Makan cepat, jgn nak ngaju plak. Hop ni pn rajin nak kenat" uhh, suara veto dr Ma mampu membuat si-budak-manja tersengih mengejek n mnarik lauk ke hadapan beliau. Si abang tarik muka! Padan muka ---> (^_^) sye menang!

"Minum air banyak2, nanti esok sakit tkak"

"Sape nak air milo?"

"Sape lambat basuh pinggan"

"G gosok gigi dlu"

-------> (^_^) Meriah!

For all the things that makes u smile, of cos "FAMILY" is the reasonable one. Although the miles keep them separated, they will always know that they are one. ONE BADERULIKSAN's. Hahahah.

Addiction

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I am an addicted to you (T_T)

Since the fasting season will starts tomorrow, i started to think of all the flaws that i can redeem or at least do something about it. The BIGGEST Flaw; Music!

What kind of music?

----> the singer screaming the lungs out with all the hatred.

( 1st sign of rebellious me)

----> Super great MUSE

Why do I need it?

----> I am a thinker*Sometimes, feels like two different entity live in my head and they keep arguing even for the small things. Like Ms Halo n Ms Horn. I want them to shut the hell up. The easiest way is by plugging my ears. Closing my mind. Enjoy the music. Ashamed of myself.

----> Helps me focus!

Its not good for me. Try to change, but seems like impossibly done. But, theres changes that need to be done.

The Biggest Present EVER**

Notes* This entry is especially for Miss Susila Muhamad a.k.a Cik Itik; for her 22nd birthday which is TODAY (4th July 2010) *Claps!!!

I am about to give her the most ridiculous present. So, be prepared hokeyh.

Ok, Cik Itik! Haritu I've promise U the biggest present in the world kan?? Kan??!! (Baek awk angguk skarang) Now, I present u the most special present that u can get from me (since i am STINGY- bak kate awakla)

TADA!!

Google Image

okeyh, sye tau awk confius. Saya janji nak bg hadiah plg besar kat muke bumikan? Kat bumi ni ape yg paling besar?? Pikir... pikir.. ish lambat ah awak neyh.

Jawapan die: AIR/LAUTAN (70% kat bumi tau!)

so, for your hadiah, i give u all the lautan in da whole world. Hahahaha. Tapi, since I didn't own ANY lautan in the world, so you DON"T GET ANY LA!! Ish, kesian awak dapat saem cam sye. Nak buat camne, ape yang sye ade, smua pinjaman dari pencipta kite. Termasuk awak (^_^) Alhamdulillah...

K, skarang sye nak refresh ingatan awak about air/lautan/pantai.

Adakah anda mngenali tempat ini? *Nods*

;ehh, tempat date kte la ;p

Dan ini?!

;Pantai Irama lah! Wahhh

(@_@)

Dan ini juga untuk awk yang berada jauh disane..

Sye tau, by now awak da berair mte, berair hidung sbb terharu ngn sye. Nangislah, sye tau sye hebat. Huahhaha *Bongkak*Riak*Takbur*

However, I am grateful to have u as my best friend, yang penah gaduh sebab brebut selipar jepun, yang same2 mkn goreng pisang cam budak kebulur cos duk hostel, yang penah sama-sama ponteng klas addmath sampai buat Ckg Pinah nangis*GOSH*, yang penah sye april foolkan smpai nak bagi pinjam wang n yang xpenah putus asa ngn sye *insaf*baek hati* lemah lembut*penyayang*

Awak jgn risau, nanti sye buat party kat awak eh. Sye jemput smua org dtg rumah sye. Tapi mse hari raya ah. Menu die; apa2 saje yg dimasak oleh Ma sye yg terchenta. Hahaha. No worry, i'll pick u up *Blinks*

Happy Birthday

(this is the best that i can do)

Smile just like u always do n rock the world (mushy la heriana)

P/s: awak, sye balik malam ni. so, i'll mms gambar2 sye berseronok di sane yahhh. Yang nyata, sye akan ke pantai itu. ehhhehe, ade orang jelesss daa.

Broken Vow

I

miss someone who I shouldn't miss

Like someone who I shouldn't like

hate someone who I shouldn't hate

Tired

Of thinking

Of saying NO

Of setting boundary

Of denying

She

Hated herself

For

What

She

is

Presumptuous Me *Halos VS Horns*

Setting: In class, where the learning took place.

Teacher: This method of teaching is very useful for the students with high level of motivation

(Students enthusiastically* scribbled down every words)

Teacher: So, do you think this method can be used in Malaysia?

.......the..loudest..silence.......

Teacher: Anyone happens to brought his brain, please answer my question.

Smart Student: I think it is not very applicable in our situation.

Teacher: Why is that so?

Smart Student: Because we have the basic knowledge of the language.

Teacher: Well, it's true. But the reason is, we don't have the need to use the language. Like, in Kelantan, you obviously don't use the language.

(Presumptuous Student startled by the sarcastic remarks and raised her hand)

Presumptuous Students: Why is that so? Are you saying that we, Kelantanese, are so outdated and very uneducated?

Teacher: Well, clearly you can't find anyone in Kelantan uses English in their communication. Thats the truth, right.

....FRUSTRATED...

Presumptuous Students: Well, what do you expect? Do Johorian used English on the regular basis in order to communicate. I would say, you would use the language that can be comprehended by both parties in order to communicate. Yeah, right, Kelantanese don't use English to order the tea, or to buy the goods, or to cursed others. But I would say, it depends on the environment that you were in. No matter where you are, you will try to adapt to your surrounding and that will mold you.

****************THIS*HAPPENED*ONLY*IN*HER*HEAD*************************************

Practice what you preach.

Horns: She always do that. You always have to bear with her negative remarks about your Kelantan. You should stand up and give her piece of your mind. Go on, stand up. Are you going to bear with it again. She is insulting your people!! You know, she taught you about lowering students' affective filter. Yet, she condemn on Kelantan like no other. You can see the hatred towards Kelantanese in every pores on her. Stand up, you coward. Don't you have enough? Don't you remembered when she said that Kelantan is soo dirty, and the food is tooo sweet for human, and the people who are sooo unfair with outsider? Like the word "KELANTAN" comes impossibly BIG NEGATIVE sign. Get Up!

*Suddenly hears Muse-Uprising fills her head** Shakes her head vigorously to silent Horns

Hallos: Just be nice won't you. Think about who she is. She's your teacher. You're a student. She just sharing her knowledge with you. You should be grateful and respect her from the bottom of your heart. Moreover, why are you acting so protective towards Kelantan. You are not really into it, right?! Do not act like ungrateful, stupid girl. You realize that you dont even know ur Kelantan that well. Maybe she did not practice what she preached, but she just human. Take it as the slips of tongue. Be good.

p/s: I know this will happened. But still, hopes wouldn't kill you. It just knocks you down. Mercilessly messy.

Decisions... Decisions..

You know, when you miss someone too much your arteries will expand and pump the blood ten times faster and cause your heart to throbbed? You don't? Well, lucky you cos I'm just making it up. (^_^) Please don't believe that!

But, the truth is; I am missing someone, like.. right at this very moment. Gosh, what is happening to me? Urgh, drama queen

Well, you need, have, must! believe this. I miss my Roomie (T_T)





Last semester, she was the one i'll turned to whenever my roller coaster emotions struck me to the deepest hell.
The day when i got back crying from the hard day or even whenever I am fuming over the stupid thing(frequent enough!), she stays, she listens. Now, do tell me; Where can I buy dozens of friends like her?

Well, she knows my secrets like no other. She's so impossibly cunning because she can make me spill out every secrets that i hold dear. Haha, I always told her that of all the person in the world, she is the first one I'll kill cos she knows what she didn't have to know~scary merry! "Cos 2 can keep a secret if 1 of them is dead"

Muzreena, I do freaked out. N thats the reason why i wanna keep a distance. Yes, I am a coward. Because, you and me seems so close and it made me think.

T.H.I.N.K. .O.F. .M.E. .W.H.O..
1)Capable of ruining the lives of people around me.
2)Capable of bringing misery to others frequent enough

Remember when I asked you what is wrong with me? You said "Heriana, kamu baik sangat. Tapi satu je. Kamu cepat marah. Kamu tau tak, sekali kamu marah, orang akan ingat benda tu selamanya walau kamu pernah buat seribu kebaikan untuk die"

Thats sums up everything.
So, i decided to say goodbye, so that you will cherish our friendship while it still a memory worth remembered. Thanks for being my roomie.

p/s: Sighs, i am no good with human, even with myself.

Back to the beginning @ Rewind

Do you still remember your childhood memories? Well, sad to say that I can’t remember much about those days.

“Eyie loves to cry! She cries a lot! Crying is one of her hobby!” *LAUGHS My sister used to tease me about that whenever my family gathered. She said that, I always love gowns that my grandma bought me. And whenever I wore a gown, I would twirl round and round, imagining that I am one of the heroine in Hindi’s movie *Geeeee!!! That was the real embarrassment. But that would be pretty as well ;p

But, I can’t remember anything about that.

Why I can’t remember much? I can’t recall the exact number of road accidents that I involved in. Maybe one of those accidents causes me my memories. Gosh! I got holes in me. I am incomplete!!! Heheh. Lucky me I have my sisters who loves to “retold” the story of my childhood especially the embarrassing one. At least I get to know about it. Arigato Na!

Among all the memories, I vividly remember this one. I don’t know why I still remember this one. Sometimes, I dreamed about this. Maybe this one is important to me.

I remember that I love rain. I remember I sat at the porch in the evening, waiting for the rain. Back then, I wore my boot and held my cute little umbrella. Then, I would paced along the corridor, singing the song that I can’t comprehend. I love the emotions during this time. So pure, innocent, and don’t care much about the world. Just Eyie, umbrella and rain.



And now, I still love rainy day but I don’t wait for it to come. When I tripped among the stairs just now, I really wish I was a little girl. My palms bleed, my knees hurt, and I wish I am a little who will cry out loud! Waaaa, it hurts. But I have to hold my tears and pretend to be strong because I am toooo biggg to say “Maaa, sakit!! Lutut ore daroh!!”