According to Cambridge dictionary, fear is an unpleasant emotion or thought that you have when you are frightened or worried about something dangerous, painful or bad that is happening or might happening.
What is your definition of fear?
It is fear when I woke up gasping from nightmare, then frightened to move a muscle because of the thought of waking up the sleeping snakes all around me. And I have to stay still, chanting to myself that there are no snakes on the very bed that I am in, until I have the guts to move and get a glass of warm water. Or else, I'll wait until the panic mode passes, and go back to sleep. Always experience this during childhood, sometimes when I have bad day. Then, I'll cringed at the mention of 'snake' till this very day.
Fear is when I have to walk alone along the dark alley and pretending to be fearless. Because I am clouded with fear, I'll keep my head straight, without glancing what's on my left or on my right. Keep on marching and marching and marching.
Fear is when I have to move to a new house in a completely unfamiliar place, without my mom and my dad around. Feels like crying silently and hopes and hopes and hopes that they will be here at least to assure me that it's okay.
Fear is when I am on my way to school office, met a stranger wearing a name tag "Azhar", told us that the school is not in need of the practicum teacher. The heart beating faster and silently praying that it will turn out well. Then, relief replace the fear when I spotted the UPM symbol on his shirt. Cikgu, how could you played us when you can smell the nervousness juice coming through our pores, clearly saw the fear on our faces. Sobs. At least, he have guts to joke around :) A super senior, nice start I hope.
Many of our fears are tissue-paper-thin, and a single courageous step would carry us clear through them.
Quoted from Brendan Francis
I'll pray that I"ll be given strength to face the upcoming fear, as I walk one step further. Amin.
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